Shut the *&@% UP! #chismoso #loyalty #allupinmybizness #partition

Yes I am about to go in!!! Why can't people ever just keep quiet or better yet keep something that they've heard to themselves. I am victim to gossip too but I try to not be the Chismoso! (Gossiper for the gringos) haha. But seriously, If I tell you something you don't have to go "whispering" it to every person that smiles at you, because most likely they either don't care or they're just going to judge you for being a gossip. SHUT UP! I'm talking about just about everyone! Why not leave some kind of mystery in your life and other people's lives, especially if you claim to be their friend. If I had a penny for each time someone has walked up to me and asked me about something that they heard from someone else about them..... You would see me hanging with Bill Gates on a daily basis!

I'm dancing to Partition by Beyonce as I write this HAHAHA

Yes it is that bad. And this comes from no loyalty. That's the saddest part about relationships (platonic, kin and romantic), they have no loyalty. Loyalty is when you know no matter what happens, the person you are loyal to comes first. That's what I call  a "Ride o' Die!" What happened to those kind of relationships! THEY DON'T REALLY EXIST. Nowadays you can't even tell your own parents things without the message getting to your friends or vice versa! It's ridiculous. Note this:

I actually tell people who I find disloyal certain parts about my life

just to see how quickly they began to spread it and the best

part is, they always do. I'm actually so deceitfully 

perceptive that I figured this out!

#notagoodthing

My Abuela never ever ever tells anyone anything that I say to her without asking me if it's okay. She is such a gangster! That's why she remains a the top with God. Both are straight hood peeps. But don't get me wrong there are 3 people in my life who just astonish me with their loyalty, respect and honesty. Ricky, Rosney and Carolina. Those are three of my friends that just have such amazing traits that I wish i possessed as gracefully as they do. I could tell Rosney something and never expect him to use to harm me or spread. He's more loyal than a Dalmatian, to all of his people. Carolina could have $5 and I could too and she would still give me hers. Ricky would show up if I called him just to make sure I'm okay, not to see what happened or any juicy information about me that he could tell someone else. THESE ARE REAL NIGGAS! (Excuse my french) But these are my Ride O' Dies! They live life, love people and never intentionally try to harm anyone! I'm usually the one that leads them to gossip haha!

Okay now that I had a little vent, I got a cool job working with kids, My NPO is still on schedule, I'm happy, back in the gym hardcore trying to get my boobs back and my obliques to be sharp! Also I really want better biceps haha. FWP

Now let's stop gossiping. Especially amongst your friends and family. If you have a current girlfriend or boyfriend, don't complain to them about your long time friends or your family because chances are your relationship is never going to be as permanent as family and some friends. Choose your loyalties wisely because they do affect your life. I love you guys and thanks for reading! RunPrayCreate!

I'm coming out of the CLOSET! #truth #newgirl #thewalkingdead #revenge #loveyourself

I have no closet to come out of haha! Seriously I'm an open book and have very little things that I hide from people but I still have them... SAD but true. We all have parts of ourselves that we just despise: maybe it's our acne *cough*me*cough*, weight, looks, where are lives are going, social status, financial struggle or lack of motivation. There's a huge list of things that eat us in the inside and we never tell people because of our fear of being judged, pitied or even envied. We have this awful preconceived notion that strangers "care" about us. NEWSFLASH!!! Not Really! Everyone is so preoccuppied with their own lives they could care less about what you or me are doing! So stop worrying and DO YOU!

Now I must say on my own accord, half of the things that I wish I could take back are pretty awful but all I can do is ask for forgiveness and leave it in the past. Our past shapes our future but it doesn't have to define us! I've let it define me for a few years but each day I take back more and more for myself, for my happiness. True Story! I would love to run in the rain naked because that would also make me happy.... I think. One day, one day. Anyways.

So I have great things happening in my life that should be very beneficial to not only my soul but everyone that my goals will touch and hopefully change lives and communities. God is working wonders on my heart and I want people to see it. God wants me to be awesome and I want to make others almost as awesome as I am! I'm joking... Not really. And THE WALKING DEAD is coming BACK!!!! WOOHOOO! I want to know Ricks plan now, although he's never really been in my favor. And all of you Scandal watchers, give it time but until then watch REVENGE it is a thousand times better in my opinion. And New Girl needs to bring some laughter back into my life soon. I miss Jess and those blue eyes.

Guys I love you all and to all my bootleg friends, more strangers read my blog then you guys. Seriously y'all are outnumbered by other states. SMH And remember to all my fellow sinners; "Child you're forgiven and loved." -Jimmy Needham  RunPrayCreate!