Ferguson Opinions... Really? #peacebestill #opinions #love #hate #ferguson

"The greatest deception men suffer is from their own opinions"

-Leonardo da Vinci

I have been stuck, rather bombarded with these hurtful and misguided opinions about Michael Brown and how Ferguson has reacted to the verdict. Truth is, this happens every single day guys. What makes this trend more important than all the other innocent lives that are taken whether it's here in the U.S.A, Africa, Mexico or Iraq? Why do you guys care so much now when you should care this much all the time? As for the racial separation, now is a time where you guys can show that race should not be a factor in a situation where it seems to take the wheel.
We are all brothers and sister in Christ. He does not see our skin complexion, our faults and our opinions. He sees our heart. So show your heart and not your hate. Love is the only thing that should be lifted up and posted on our Instagrams, Tweets, Tumblrs' and Facebook profiles. Let's pray for the officers and the victims. That's where our power lies. There's only one person who can change the hearts of the jury, judge and rioters. And He's not reading your Facebook post, He's reading your heart. Now I don't have a side but only the heart and understanding to say that I have been told I was useless and even looked down upon because of my color and I still don't have a bias opinion or outlook. I pray. When I don't understand, I pray. When I hurt, I pray. When I succeed and understand, I pray for humility and thanks. So I have one word for you all that don't understand: PRAY. 

RunPrayCreate.

Needing A Reason To Go On... #mentaltsuicide #thisistheend

Yes, sometimes the most simple and absolute questions have a perplex answer. Who am I to tell you what to do with your life or what's right from wrong when I don't entirely understand my on circumstances. I know that I'm meant to do something that will make a difference in lives and I know that I must be patient and faithful to get to that destined euphoria.... BUT Patience is not a virtue that I was lucky enough to have. So one thing I must  remember is that before I stop and become complacent in my life, I must envision a greater future for myself and those that I influence. Life is full of surprises! Why QUIT when you are so CLOSE to that break away.

That point in your life where all the heartache and struggle seems to have not been in vain. 

That point where you can stop and look back and smile. 

That point where you know that your kids are proud of the parent that they have been blessed with. That point where you look the way you've always wanted to for you and not for anyone else.

 That point where you sit at the beach, watching the sunset with your Citrus Mojito.

(Which I honestly love.) 

So whenever I feel I need encouragement, I write not only to encourage myself but to encourage others in the same predicament as I am. The ones who wish they lived somewhere else, had someone else in their arms or a different future lined up! Guess what!?! It's NEVER too late to change any part of your life. Even if you have kids with the wrong person or a job that pays all your bills! Don't let the temporary setbacks of life have permanent outcomes. If it's not helping you.... SHAKE IT OFF! Leave it dwindling in the dust of your mental rear-view mirror. If you want to be in California... GO! (That's me just convincing myself to drop everything and leave.... I need to, I really do!) I'm going back right now! Naw not yet haha If only!

Okay so about me: Nonprofit is still in it's womb but I'm kind of nervous so I have been beating around the proverbial bush! I have been physically in the right state of my fitness level and I feel great! Haha that sounds like an infomercial. School is whipping me like a slave who tried to run away and was caught. Work is amazing, I love being an educator for now, and my kids lighten up my life most days! I miss a lot of my friends who are busy with their lives but who am I to feel that I deserve a moment of their time... (That's sarcasm) But anyhow til next time I get a splurge of late night energy! I love you all! RunPrayCreate!!!

P.S. If you don't want Scandal, Revenge, Supernatural or American Horror Story don't ever read my blog again until you become obsessed with them all!

Players Gonna Play... Haters Gonna Hate. #bangbang #dropitlikeitshot #iphone6

Yes you are 100% right! I am listening to Taylor Swift as I right this! But WAIT don't judge me just yet! It's Anthem Lights! My favorite group! Yes they are a boy band... (I know that doesn't help my case) But I swear that I'm a boy! And you have to watch the video first before you make a judgement. There's a reason!

This song is actually lyrically inspirational. And you guys know how much I love to be inspired! Taylor gets kudos points. But I am SOOOOOO sorry for my long absence. But I am back and with a vengeance. I realized something has been missing from my life and it has been my recreational activities such as soccer, fishing, reading, writing, singing, dancing, shadow boxing and just being plain stupid. I have been too serious. And that's not me, I understand I'm older now and should be career focused but life is too precious and what people think really doesn't matter. "SO DO YOU BOO!" (For all of you who said I wasn't "up to date" I am now!) All thanks to a friend whom she know who I'm speaking of! BUUUUUUUT Let's get to it! I'm doing Amaze Balls. I've been bombarded with school, life. work. friends. Not that you guys don't fall into my friends category. Because you do!

I have an amazing job working with some amazing kids. They literally make me laugh more than they give me a headache and I love all of them. My dog BellaMarie is doing great, but she's gaining a little weight. Not my fault I swear! But if I get low on food, we all know what's on the list... Chinese Food! (You get it? Because I'm gonna eat my dog) Yeah that's what I thought you better mentally chuckle. If you guys are out of the loop go watch Mistresses, it's a show that will sneak up on you and blow your mind! OH yeah I wrote like 2 songs and they are pretty dope! I mean seriously I might just be the next Luther Vandross or Frank Sinatra! Don't doubt me.

So I want you guys to do me a favor and every day do one thing that you would absolutely not do normally. I will let you guys know my funniest that I've done out of my comfort zone: "So I was screeching to this song called "Rather Be" when this little old white couple pulled up next to me... I looked them right and the eye and said "No no no no no no place I'd rather be!!!" while wagging my finger and moving my head side to side. Yes I'm acting a fool these days! I have to calm down! But you know what She got a booty like a Cadillac and I can send her into overdrive! Ahhhh I'm still in college for all you weird people who have to ask me that question! Let's Be Real! I'm the smartest dumb person that you guys know! After all I just found out that Rhode Island is a state!!!

Alright read me soon! I love you guys and Do what I asked! RunPrayCreate!

P.S. Don't get iPhone 6 or Pigs Will FLY!

Some things never change... #Imcurious #life #prettylittleliars #thanksobama #imisscali

Curiosity is so strange, isn't it? It makes us search for things that we have know idea about. I can honestly say if I was a cat, I'd be the origin of the saying. PSHH I'd probably be a gangster cat, like Garfield. Anyhow, no matter how old I get, how much experience I have in life or how many mistakes I make, it seems inevitable that I will still search for some sort of finish or climax that I have no idea where it is. I'm going to let you guys in on a little secret... I just want to be amazing. I don't know what exactly I will end up doing in these next few years, but with Grad school soon to end, my baby BellaMarie is getting older. I'm becoming more antsy. But here's the breakdown:

Love- For me it seems to only come from above. Of course we have friends, and I have quite a few people who are worthy of my love. But there's still only so much you can give to certain people. Even if we are designed to love, that does not mean that we know how to do it correctly. My future wife? She's still hiding, or maybe she's trapped in a castle most likely in Spain. I'm too broke to go and save her now, I'll just send her some Ramen noodles haha.

Life- I'm getting back into soccer! Go Deutschland! A few friends have stepped up and made the transition easier and I appreciate that. I'm back on my running grind. Preparing for a few upcoming 5K's, feel free to join. Church is a blessing and I have been blessed with some good people and I love the youth there. (I hope that didn't sound creeper-ish) But it is the truth. I can feel a good heart from a mile away.

Lesson- This one is a little more passionate. Everyday that I wake up, I feel like I'm missing some sort of window or opportunity to make a difference. I've learned that every day is a fresh start with fresh thoughts. Don't dwell on what you could've done when there is oh so much left to do. Be bold, be beautiful and be different. I will not stop until people can look at me and smile out of admiration and respect. Watch me!

We all have something inside of us that makes us curious. Even if it's the type of curiosity to get you into trouble, it still shows that you have some fire in you to explore and be brave. Never let the curiosity die. When it dies, so does your dreams.

I can't even! HAHAHA Anyways, GUYS my NPO is almost entirely done. I'm finishing my Articles of Incoporation and I'm ready to make a difference. I taught Bella how to 'Pray' and now I'll see her in heaven haha Oh and I'm officially addicted to Pretty Little Liars. (Not just because they are all amazingly attractive) It's actually captivating. I'm going to have to get to bed now. I have a big day today. I love all of you guys. Message ME! RunPrayCreate!!!

If I Could, I'd Punch Him In The Face Again #ohboy #imback #Gameofthrones #Whitecollar

Yes, I punched someone right in the face! Quite a few times... Do I regret it, that's honestly a question that would have to be discussed in detail. (I'll give you the brief version of the story at the bottom)*
 We all have things that we do and we know we shouldn't yet we still don't regret the choice we made. AND THAT'S OKAY! It's our life. We make mistakes and honestly they just make us wiser, stronger and a little rougher. Go watch how a diamond is made and you will see that we are worth the struggles, hardships and mistakes that we burden ourselves with! As I'm writing this I'm listening to Ain't It Fun by Paramore "Don't go crying to yo mama, cus your on your own, in the real wooo ooorlllld!" HAHAHA Y'all know that I'm singing my heart out to. But ANYWHO back to this message. Make All Of Your Mistakes, as long as they don't have permanent consequences. Because I will NOT bail anyone out of jail. I have BILLS! HAHA seriously. I MISSED you guys, seriously. Sorry that I have been so selfishly preoccupied with my own life to worry about whether or not if I was informing the world of my happenings.

Okay so Game of Thrones has just been so well played. I'm stoked to see where Sansa ends up and if you read the books and try to spoil it for me, I will find you and I will kill you. SO DON'T! And if you guys have not watched White Collar, it is hands down one of the most clever shows of the 21st century regardless of its soon departure.  GUYS.... I have gained muscle and now it's time for me to cut and become my lean, mean self again. JOIN ME on my diets, that actually won't be a mistake that you make. Or at least a good mistake! But I have 2 new jobs, a different car, closer to God, and just preparing for my graduation that will be here sooner than later. I love you all. RunPrayCreate!!!

******(Okay long story short, I was at Roxy and the guy was getting beat up by this girl and so I tried to stop the girl from beating up the guy and then when I turned my back to him, he hit me in the back of the head. I turned around to see why, and he just smirked. Yes I was a little more fiery then, and he was definitely consuming something stronger than a Whiskey sour, but my GHETTO instincts kicked in and I reached across a group of people and started going at him. His girlfriend now tried to stop me but it was too late, I had the RED, BLURRED Vision. Eventually the bouncer pulled me off kicking and swinging hahahaha. TRUE story!)

Should I Become A Stripper? #seriousquestion #igiveup #future #scandal #gameofthrones

Seriously, I have thought of all the pros and cons of becoming a stripper. It makes sense... Aren't I a college student... Isn't that WHY we have strippers! So then, shouldn't I become one. I've checked. It's not as simple as it seem and I'm way to beautiful to be glued to a pole. Let me rephrase that.. I'm way to intelligent to be stuck to a pole. Let me rephrase that one more time... I'm way to BLESSED to be bound to a pole. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with how a person makes a living, and it took me a while to understand this, but it is the truth. Whether you work at:

1. McDonalds

2. Construction

3. The hospital

4. WalMart

5. Or mow lawns

THAT IS YOUR JOB! That is what you do! That is your Grind! No one can judge or tell you that it's nothing because it is something, it's yours! So do it!And do it well. I have been going through hell since I moved from California, but my facade is like steel and I keep a positive outlook to receive some optimism in turn. Monetary, physical and emotional burdens surround me... But I don't give up. Because in the end I have Faith and Hope to hold onto. They are two powerful sentiments that keep me trucking and I know my time is coming. I may give up but I never give in! And this right here is to tell you. Grind On! Work Hard! Pray Hard! And do you! Your time is coming, God will take the lowest of people and put them above millions with the flick of a hand. He loves and only wants the best. But he just like any job, he has to know that you want it as bad as he wants it for you! So work.

In the words of mi abuela: 

"It won't always be this way, trust me. 

It's about to be better than you could imagine." -Starline

And I want y'all to know. I'm always there for any of you. If you need a hand, a thought or just someone to yell at. Message me, call me, snapchat me, tweet me! I will listen, I won't judge, I care for everyone of you. I love you. Don't ever think otherwise.

P.S. Scandal is just great I mean Olivia is being put through the fire. Her dad is definetely showing that he deserves to be Command. Game of Thrones! BAHAHAHAHAH Joffrey died. I'm sorry but it wouldn't be funny if it wasn't fake or if he wasn't a total douchebag! But I'm excited to see what Sansa ends up doing. RunPrayCreate!

I have a disease... :( #affected #nocure #healme

I'm sorry to inform you guys but I have a disease. And it's deadly. I think it's about time that I told someone. Who better to tell than you guys who support my blog, my family and friends. It's highly contagious and incurable.

Disease: a condition of the living animal or plant body or of one of its parts

 that impairs normal functioning and is typically

 manifested by distinguishing signs and symptoms. (Merriam-Webster)

I'm afflicted by motivation. It just might be the end of me. I have so much that I want to do, see and be. It's sickening and actually gives me symptoms such as headaches, random spurts of energy and anger. I sometimes spend days trying to figure out how to fight it. Such motivation cannot be good for one person. Is it bad that I want to make a difference in every life that I come across? Is it sad that I get upset with myself when I don't achieve the simplest thing such as finishing homework on time? (Although it's because I know if my hw is on time, than my grades will be on point, then my degree will be on point which means my success and future is on point) If you don't know what I mean by on point.... 

Think about the last time you worked hard at work or school and received that A or that huge paycheck that left excess in your wallet. That's on POINT! So will my disease consume me physically and soon mentally??? I THINK SO! But I'm gonna let this disease take over and I'm gonna spread it to everyone else. I need to thrive, to win, to change, to live and make a difference. What is my life if I leave nothing to help others? 

The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential... these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence.
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 "The will to win, the desire to succeed,

the urge to reach your full potential...

these are the keys that will unlock 

the door to excellence."

-Confucious

I missed you all! My Non Profit Organization is still underway guys, I'm still in the heart of my book that I'm writing and this week I will began volunteering as a mentor for at Risk Youth. I'm at my goal weight and have gained inches on my legs and arms due to my intense cardio and weighlifting. Praise! I have work guys and that's why I've been GHOST haha. But I'm still beautiful and creative! ;) I love you guys and I'll post again soon! RunPrayCreate!

The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential... these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_motivational.html#Wq26v6J9kqHCM4Gz.99