Needing A Reason To Go On... #mentaltsuicide #thisistheend

Yes, sometimes the most simple and absolute questions have a perplex answer. Who am I to tell you what to do with your life or what's right from wrong when I don't entirely understand my on circumstances. I know that I'm meant to do something that will make a difference in lives and I know that I must be patient and faithful to get to that destined euphoria.... BUT Patience is not a virtue that I was lucky enough to have. So one thing I must  remember is that before I stop and become complacent in my life, I must envision a greater future for myself and those that I influence. Life is full of surprises! Why QUIT when you are so CLOSE to that break away.

That point in your life where all the heartache and struggle seems to have not been in vain. 

That point where you can stop and look back and smile. 

That point where you know that your kids are proud of the parent that they have been blessed with. That point where you look the way you've always wanted to for you and not for anyone else.

 That point where you sit at the beach, watching the sunset with your Citrus Mojito.

(Which I honestly love.) 

So whenever I feel I need encouragement, I write not only to encourage myself but to encourage others in the same predicament as I am. The ones who wish they lived somewhere else, had someone else in their arms or a different future lined up! Guess what!?! It's NEVER too late to change any part of your life. Even if you have kids with the wrong person or a job that pays all your bills! Don't let the temporary setbacks of life have permanent outcomes. If it's not helping you.... SHAKE IT OFF! Leave it dwindling in the dust of your mental rear-view mirror. If you want to be in California... GO! (That's me just convincing myself to drop everything and leave.... I need to, I really do!) I'm going back right now! Naw not yet haha If only!

Okay so about me: Nonprofit is still in it's womb but I'm kind of nervous so I have been beating around the proverbial bush! I have been physically in the right state of my fitness level and I feel great! Haha that sounds like an infomercial. School is whipping me like a slave who tried to run away and was caught. Work is amazing, I love being an educator for now, and my kids lighten up my life most days! I miss a lot of my friends who are busy with their lives but who am I to feel that I deserve a moment of their time... (That's sarcasm) But anyhow til next time I get a splurge of late night energy! I love you all! RunPrayCreate!!!

P.S. If you don't want Scandal, Revenge, Supernatural or American Horror Story don't ever read my blog again until you become obsessed with them all!