I Never Really Liked You #andioop #biglittlelies

We all have that one person, whether it is family, friend or a celebrity. Sometimes we just don't vibe with a person. Sometimes that person is ourselves. Me, myself and I spent most of my early twenties learning self-awareness, self-love and self-management. Now don't get me wrong, I'm FAR from perfect but as I do this PsyD in psychology, I learn more about how other people may feel unloved and then they can't show others love. WHY SHOULD YOU CARE? 

"Because no matter where you are in your life, you are surrounded by people who are lacking love and the ability to give it."
-Me

When we love ourselves we will love others more intently and our lives will show love, our workplace will show love, our careers will grow with love, our bank accounts will grow with love!

I SWEAR, I'M A LIVING WITNESS!

Now most of y'all nosy asses (and I oop) came for some CHISME, Well I'll give you a little of my details in life!

On social media, I try to keep a light profile, but I don't pretend I'm amazing or rich or better than anyone. I truly try to live my best life. I've been doing real estate classes to help fund my nonprofit BeUnleashed (beuinc.org), I'm in a dual Master/PsyD program that i'm more than half way finished with, I might have to sue my current landlord  because of some fishy behavior that they have been doing, like "losing" my money orders but then "finding" them once I hire counsel, I'm planning a trip to visit the one and only Kenny Bear and I will be going to Asia within the next few months.

Now on a lighter note... BIG LITTLE FN LIES! This show is everything and it highlights on a part of upper middle class peoples lives that we don't often see because we aren't behind close doors. I feel this show is creating emotional intelligence in it's viewers! WATCH IT, HBO!

I love y'all. RunPrayCreate!

I QUIT! #timesup #imtired

Now I know that you're wondering... What the hell is he quitting? His job? Education? A relationship? I'm gonna keep it one hunnid! I'm quitting on quitting. Lately I've been feeling too content, stuck in an endless cycle of work, gym, home, bar etc. That's not the life that I expected at this age. I know that there is more to this life than the little frivolties that combine and start to create a humdrum life. Honestly, I'm blessed to have my life to myself and have God to be helping me on this journey. I'm not very open about personal things in my life and I can say even Keith gets depressed sometimes. Don't let Instagram and Snapchat fool you! But I've been receiving new creative opportunities that I'm so excited to grow with and I can't wait until I can share it with you all. In due time. I know it's been a LOOOOOONNNNGGG time since I left a little blog about me to catch y'all up! But somethings a brewing in me and my life where I can't afford to slow down, back down or give up. Pray for me y'all! (Whoever you pray to) EatPrayRun!

Love you all, Love yourself and Love Everyone else.

Where The Beauty Lies...

We can find true beauty in the simplest things. It can be in a butterfly, a child's laughter or a slice of pizza. But what is happiness? Is it a feeling? Is it a person? Is it a place? For me, it's all of the above. I find true profound bliss in the things that occur suddenly but last forever. Today I lost a cousin who did not feel loved, he felt alone in a world full of people. I wish I had the heart and mind to put his needs before my own, but I'm weak and selfish. Does that make me wrong? I don't think so but it does make me ignorant. How do we describe life when we feel alone? I'm reading a book called Uninvited and the author speaks about finding God in the midst of all the ache of loneliness and that is so true for me as well. When it comes down to it, the only one who keeps me going on is God. Our hearts long for love from another and when it is deprived of that it becomes warped and darkened by evil thoughts and feelings. God can ease that pain and bring light but you have to find something or someone worth holding onto. I am alone is Los Angeles but I'm never lonely. My prayers, my thoughts and my feelings keep me company and motivated. As I embark on the journey of triumph and self-worth I only use the loss as motivation to continue to leave a mark. My education in psychology, my nonprofit and my connections are all things that will help me to make a deep and beautiful scar upon this earth. I'm not gonna lie, I just finished a bottle of wine so this piece is all emotion. I'm not drinking because I'm sad, I'm celebrating a life, not a death. Yeah Uncle Chis I snapchatted you those exact words haha.

RunPrayCreate!

Lonely but Nont Alone. #priceless #alone #newleaf

There are moments in our lives where we are bombarded with emotions that are so uncontrollable that we spiral into despair and wonder why things are happening to us that seem to be a misfortune. UGH it's literally the worst feeling in the world. Yet... Does that mean that it's not meant for us to feel? Personally, I enjoy feeling sad or like life is throwing rocks at me. Not because I have some sadistic fetish or anything but because it gives me the chance to test my endurance and durability. 

I have accomplished more life goals than should've been statistically possible for someone like me and I'm not finished... I hope haha Let me put one thing on your mind: "You are not alone even when you are lonely." There is something... someone that is created to fulfill every need that you have. You think that your weird little nuisances have destined you to a life of solitude??? GET OUT OF HERE! I've witnessed crackheads find love. And I mean that kind of love where they will trade their last crack to save their lovers life! #truelove.

Now my longtime readers are wondering where this is coming from.... Me giving love advice? Naw chill! I'm giving hope to people like me: So unique and perplexing that they don't even know what they want yet. I'll say this, give it time and explore your options. Life is meant to test your limits. If you try something new and it's not what you expected... IT'S Teaching you something! IF you move somewhere and feel lost, FIND out why you feel lost before you quit. IF you are dating and feel like you're destined to be alone, WAIT for that person who understands all of your quirkiness.

With that being said I must say as usual that my new show is Nurse Jackie, it's literally like Weeds meets Breaking Bad haha. If you haven't watched it, SHAME. SHAME. SHAME. SHAME. (Yes that's a Game of Thrones reference) And about me, I'm getting ready to end my journey at this one job and hopefully start a whole new incredible leaf if it's God's Plan. Maybe I'll even be relocating. I'm excited for what God has in store for me! Oh yeah and NATE from Austria is moving to LA in September. He's the light of my life and I am beyond stoked as I await his arrival for 3 months, hopefully more. Just remember, Don't Give Up. EVER.  RunPrayCreate! 

Message to the Gay and Orlando Community #alllivesmatter #justpray

I went to bed at the time that many lives were being taken. I was at peace while only 2500 miles away pain was being spread through a place I call home. Why??? I don't know. I may never really know. But I know in my heart whether it was because they had a certain lifestyle that may not be considered traditional or because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time....

 They are who they are, We all are WHO we are!

 Each person inside the club was a beautiful piece of art that God put on this earth for a reason and I loved them as we should love our brothers and sisters of this earth.

"Our lives will continue,

 as they should but that does not mean that we should stop praying

 and believing that there will be a time of change, of peace, of prosperity, 

when every person on this earth will have access to clean water, a home, a love that they can call their own regardless of how it may look to others, 

a time where we can pray, eat and live wherever 

regardless of our background."

I was in tears in church and I left because my heart hurts, My pastor is in Syria fighting a battle that most people don't even think is theirs yet his heart led him to the battlefront. I can only put down words to show my heart because I have not been sent to that space within myself where I feel I can move mountains alone. So for now, I'll pray for those who have that spark and I pray that we use this confusion as a way to fuel our hope for a better tomorrow.

I love you all, whether gay, straight, Muslim, Syrian, Asian, black, white, an Avatar... It doesn't matter!  RunPrayCreate.

Let The Blessings Flow! #thegoodlife #standingtall

Everyday I wake up with a new vision in my head about what I want and need from life. I've yet to fully grasp the concept that I am an adult with priorities and still the ability to be a huge positive or negative force in life. Many people fail to remember that they have unlimited possibilities despite where they come from or their current state. I, Myself know that I must do something that leaves a positive dent in humanity. But how? Well that's what I believe I'm in California to discover. I've been bombarded and blessed with castings and job interviews. I'm a business man by degree but an entertainer by heart. So which one will overpower the other? We shall see.

But as for now I'm going with the flow. 

There's so many things that this life has to offer me and I

 plan on exploring as many as I can before my time is up!

 I pray that you all do the same!

Okay so we haven't talked about shows in a while. First off, I started watching Making a Murderer, and it bored me. (I'm sorry) But there's a show called Reign that literally will send you on an emotional roller coaster but in a good way! Watch it! WATCH IT NOW! Of course I need some comedic relief and that is a Netflix show called Sirens. It's quirky.

I miss writing and all of you but I'm busy. I'll try to get back to it soon. Eat, Pray, Run! 

Before you leave me... #alittleditty #thenextstep #love #lonelybutnotalone

"Rick woke up again only to see that he was alone in his bed. He threw his head backwards into his pillow as hard as he could and almost simultaneously a tear rolled down the side of his face and into his ear. He had this feeling of pain and anger that mixed together to this unappealing emotion that he couldn't figure out in his head. Yes he knew he was attractive and charming but why is one side of his bed always cold in the morning but not at night. Rick slowly sat up and threw his legs off the side of the bed. His dog Lola ran up and laid down in front of him and he brushed his feet along her fur as he stared aimlessly out his window. The view he had looked over Central Park. He should be happy. He shouldn't feel lonely because he isn't always alone. She was number 3 this week. He made her laugh. They planned their next date. She left before he woke up; no number, no note, no trace." 

We often forget about other peoples feelings. We think that what is important or not important to us doesn't affect others but it does. We need to remember to put others feelings in the equation before we make selfish decisions. Our selfless acts reaps benefits that we cannot even fathom. Set aside our vanity and own preconceived notions and step out on faith in love, life and anything that matters to us. Don't write someone or something off because it's not in your perfect vision but also don't settle for something that doesn't reap positive benefits for you or will make you a better person in life.

All women are beautiful and they are often taken advantage of nowadays but men fall prey to the vanity of others also.

Guard Your Hearts, Because Everything That You Do Flows From It!

A little short story that I've began, If you like it, let me know. It's symbolic and only gets more powerful. Sorry I've been gone so long from the blog. Guess what? I done graduated! Now I'm all kinds of smarts! HAHAHA yeah right! And I'm transitioning on my preparation for my next step! Yes California is my go to home but now with all these possibilities, I've applied to jobs in London, NYC, Seattle and even Boston! Pray for me! And if you don't pray, wish me luck! I want to change the world, I don't know how but I know that I must start with myself! RunPrayCreate!